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I’ve been longing to work with a Lupin/Tonks pairing for ages; I honestly was just so worried I wouldn’t do them justice. From the moment we met him in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, I fell instantly in love. There’s something so gentle in his melancholy and so admirable in his way with the students. I still get goose bumps every time he teaches Harry the Patronus charm.

We only get a mention of him in Goblet of Fire, but then Lupin returns full-force as a member of the Order in Order of the Phoenix. Among those Aurors, we finally meet Tonks – the first character who doesn’t quite fill that adult/teacher/parental role, and is certainly not a fledgling either. Since the affinity is still so strong, I think I must have read a lot of myself into her on my first go-around.

I just adored every thing about Tonks, so her sadness in Half-Blood Prince was especially rough. It was obvious she felt loss like a phantom limb, but the big reveal that it’s our dear Lupin that she longs for felt like Christmas. Amongst all of the teenage angst and heartbreak and death, here were the two loveliest of grown wizards falling in love.

Of course, nothing is perfect and nothing is simple – a war is brewing, Lupin is a werewolf, Tonks is younger than him – there are so many things stacked against them. We don’t even get to be a fly on the wall during their understated wedding pre-Deathly Hallows. That means that, though I made sure to stick closely to canon, good portions of this mix had to be pulled from implied plots. Some of the narrative below (and within the songs) is my own imagination, but I think it fits into their story.

Their pregnancy was such a potent peripheral plot line; their union was so reflective of that prevailing theme of love in the face of death and loss. Even typing these words makes my nose burn and eyes well… when we lose them at the Battle of Hogwarts, when we see them lying still on the ground, as if they’re only sleeping, it’s like a part of our own heart has been torn away. But there’s this baby, this new life just waiting to begin, and through Teddy (a perfect hybrid of Lupin and Tonks), their story gets to carry on.

The end of this mix is pure fabrication, of course, but it’s something I’d like to believe. And most importantly, it’s something inspired by my dear sister, for whom this mix was made especially for. After we see Lupin comfort Harry alongside Sirius, James and Lily, with the help of the Resurrection Stone, I like to imagine him searching for his wife. I think it’s clear that our characters have something after this world waiting for them (think of Harry and Dumbledore in Harry’s mind’s-eye King’s Cross Station). So for my own selfish happiness, I’ve created an ending for Lupin and Tonk’s story where, even in the darkest of hours, they get to find each other again, embrace, and ascend together to whatever comes next.

So. Much. Preamble. But the wordiness pairs pretty well with a ridiculous 72-song mix, right? Oh, and I want to thank my amazing sister [suchaprince] and my darling [mad_teagirl] for helping me come up with my head cast for Lupin (Ewan McGregor) and Tonks (Natalie Portman). And an extra special thanks to [mad_teagirl] for her always-lovely cover art. ONWARD!

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Your Hand, My Hand, Fits So Easy
Volume One

a Lupin/Tonks fanmix


Remus John Lupin is not only a wizard; he’s a werewolf with a heavy heart. He’s haunted by the memory of those who have been lost. He’s broken, severed from those around him, almost as if by choice. But he’s also driven by the deepest urge to protect the innocent.

1. Clogs – 5/4


2. Crystal Stilts – The Dazzled

I sit in the window watching my days from a safe distance
Clock towers toll and I am frozen every instant

3. The National - Sorrow

Sorrow found me when I was young
Sorrow waited, sorrow won

4. Frightened Rabbit – Modern Leper

A cripple walks amongst you
All you tired human beings
He's got all the things a cripple has
Not working arms and legs

5. Andrew Bird - Effigy

Fake conversations on a nonexistent telephone
Like the words of a man who’s spent a little too much time alone
When one has spent too much time alone

6. City and Colour - Against the Grain


If you should wake to find you’re abandoned
And the road you’ve traveled
Leads to a dead end
When death creeps in to play its part
You must follow your heart


Nymphadora Tonks is an accident-prone, shape-shifting Auror. She’s a brave, headstrong, fiery witch who wears her heart on her sleeve. She’d rather fall down 100 times than give up even once.

7. Devotchka - We’re Gonna Make It


8. Polly Scattergood – I Am Strong

I am strong
I am not weak

9. Zoe and Michael Biehl – Tightrope

So you're wishing that you never did
All the embarrassing things you've done
And you're wishing you could set it right
And you're wishing you could stay the night

10. Rilo Kiley – More Adventurous

If my brain quits, well, I guess then that’s just it
And if my hands stop working you can call me lazy
And if I get pregnant I guess I’ll just have the baby
Let it be loved, let me be loved

11. First Aid Kit - When I Grow Up

When I grow up, I want to live near the sea
Crab claws and bottles of rum, that’s what I’ll have
Staring at a seashell, waiting for it to embrace me

12. Ane Brun – Raise My Head

I’ve got my best shoes on
I’m ready for it all
Bring in your best crew – come on
I’m ready for it all


Lupin and Tonks meet as members of the reestablished Order of the Phoenix. They’re fast friends, which is harder on Lupin since he’s so used to keeping his distance. Tonks plays it as coolly as she can, but it’s hard to hide how much she adores him. And she is the first shining light in his life after years in the dark.

13. Clogs – I Used to Do


14. The National - Pretty in Pink

Pretty in pink, isn’t she?
Pretty in pink, isn’t she?

15. A Fine Frenzy – Sleepwalking

We’re always fallin’

16. M83 – Soon, My Friend

I’ll be yours someday
I’ll be yours someday
I’ll be yours someday
I’ll be yours someday

17. Laura Veirs – Little Deschutes

I want nothing more
Than to dance with you
I want nothing more
Than to float with you

18. The Futureheads - Fallout

After days in the dark
Light broke through
And it was difficult to see you


He falls for her, but can’t bring himself to tell her. The weight he carries is closely tied to who he is and how she’d be judged if they were to ever be together. But she’s been in love with him since the moment they met. The tragic loss of Sirius in the Department of Mysteries propels Tonks to admit to Lupin how she feels. Life is too short and she starts to pursue him.

19. Detektivbyrån – 054


20. The xx - Islands

See what I’ve done
That bridge is on fire
Back to where I’ve been

21. Lykke Li – I Know Places

There is a road, there is a way
There is a place, there is a place
I know places we can go, babe

22. The National - Conversation 16

I was afraid I’d eat your brains
I was afraid I’d eat your brains
‘Cause I’m evil
‘Cause I’m evil

23. Florence + the Machine – Heartlines

In some way, I'm there with you
Up against the wall, on a Wednesday afternoon
Just keep following the heartlines on your hand

24. James Vincent McMorrow - Follow You Down to the Red Oak Tree

Names get carved in the red oak tree
Of the ones who stay and the ones who leave
I will wait for you there with these cindered bones
So follow me follow me down


Convinced he is too poor, too old, and too dangerous for her, Lupin pulls away from Tonks. Heartbroken, her sadness is projected for the whole world to see. It kills him to hurt her, but in his mind, he has this deeply rooted power to cause her even more pain. He doesn’t trust himself.

25. Detektivbyrån - Monster


26. Grizzly Bear (with Victoria Legrand) – Slow Life

Take anything you want, it's fine
Keep up the slow life for the night
Don't take it back, I'll just deny
This constant noise all the time

27. Dusty Organ – Red Hair Black

Lean your back against my chest
And what is this I find?
While combing out your ginger locks
A hidden streak of black

28. Peter Gabriel – My Body Is a Cage

My body is a cage
That keeps me from dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

29. Dum Dum Girls – I’m Coming Down

I take as much as I can get, I don’t take any regret
I close my eyes to conjure up something
But it’s just a faint taste in my mouth
I think I’m coming down

30. Bon Iver – Creature Fear

I was full by your count
I was lost but your fool
Was a long visit wrong
Say you are the only


There are late-night rendezvous, stolen moments, and promises spoken in secret. And, inspired by Fleur and Bill Weasley, Tonks refuses to let Lupin push her away. She aches for him and he cannot fight his heart any more. In a small, intimate ceremony, they bind their lives together.

31. Dirty Three – Stellar


32. Zola Jesus – Night

So come close, close to me
And I’ll come closer to you

33. Radiohead – Codex

Slide your hand, jump off the end
The water’s clear, and innocent

34. Ellie Goulding – Heartbeats

And you, you knew the hand of a devil
And you, kept us awake with wolves' teeth
Sharing different heartbeats in one night

35. Alexander Ebert – Million Years

Like exploding sun
Let the light unfurl
Been a million years full of fears
But I found my girl

36. Beach House – Wedding Bell

I chose
You’re ringing the only wedding bell

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Onward to volume two!

This Lupin/Tonks fanmix was created for you with love by ladyapplesauce. The beautiful cover art is by the gorgeous mad_teagirl.


( 11 comments — Leave a comment )
Jan. 6th, 2012 09:34 pm (UTC)
I love these two. ❤
Thank you very much for sharing this. ❤
Feb. 18th, 2012 12:50 am (UTC)
I love them, too! <3 And you are so welcome... I hope you enjoy!
Jan. 7th, 2012 04:36 am (UTC)
b'awwww I always love me some Remus and Tonks! They need more love in the fandom! Downloading both because ugh my heart.
Feb. 18th, 2012 12:55 am (UTC)
UGH! My heart, too. They're just the most understated -- yet loveliest -- pairing from HP. I hope your heart loved the mix :)
Jan. 10th, 2012 09:35 pm (UTC)
Love the mix!

And I could so see Ewan and Natalie as Remus and Tonks! It makes me, as an Obi-Wan/Padme fan, smile.
Feb. 18th, 2012 12:55 am (UTC)
OH MY GOSH... I didn't even THINK of Obi-wan/Padme. Durrrrr. No wonder they just seemed to fit together to me. I just adore Ewan and Natalie (and Remus and Tonks, obviously!) I'm so glad my head cast made you smile :D
Jan. 17th, 2012 11:41 am (UTC)
forgive my tardiness, but I only just saw that you posted this.... because I am lame.. but anyway ANYWAY. I am excited that it is posted because when I was making the cover art and looking at the tracklisting I was like "ooooh... this is a really good mix, I want it" and now I haaaaaave iiiiiiiiit.

p.s. I will always make you cover art, because I love you.
Feb. 18th, 2012 12:54 am (UTC)
Now you can forgive MY tardiness since it's taken me about a month to finally respond. Oops! I'm so glad I had your help with this and I really hope you liked the epic epicness of the longest mix on earth.

P.S. I love ALL of the cover art you create, and I love it even more so when you make it for me ;)
Feb. 27th, 2012 12:59 am (UTC)
I *DO* love the epic epicness of the mix! And I am BEYOND flattered that you are using my art as an icon, I grinned like an idiot and fanned at my face a bit just now.

p.s. you're too kind my love, like I said, I am always happy to make you art.
Feb. 28th, 2012 10:23 pm (UTC)
Whenever I think of you fanning your face, I hear "the Northern aggression" in my head <3
Feb. 28th, 2012 11:42 pm (UTC)
That is because I am so often fanning my face and lamenting the "northern aggression" XD

p.s. ohmigod! another of my coverarts as an icon, that is really amazingly flattering ♥
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